PEACE I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give it to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid. You heard me tell you, ‘I am going away and I will come back to you.’ If you loved me, you would rejoice that I am going to the Father; for the Father is greater than I.
We celebrated the first death anniversary of my Spiritual Guide and Mother, Sr. Agnes Xavier, of the Holy Spirit. Years after the death of my Mother, she took on to mentor me and it was because of her guidance I said yes to Serve God, Help Zamboanga City in Public Service. She has loved and lived her life for Jesus. She taught me to catch the gaze of Jesus. And in Bishop Moises’ homily, the gaze of love of Jesus is prayer itself. In times when we were in crisis Sr. Agnes taught us to say: “Mary show yourself a Mothet to us!”
The past week I have been brought to a realization of how untruth and lies in the ugly ploy of propaganda and gaslighting has destroyed my name con mancha ya dale duda na gente. Two radio stations mouthing false accusations successfully cast doubts and disappointments on people about me. As I embrace the pain and all the difficulties that come my way, I humbly surrender unto the Lord.
What carries me today? God's presence, God's peace. Being more aware of my vulnerability I make an effort every second to express my love to others. Whether it is a co-worker who was a victim of mauling, fire victims and co-workers distributing assistance I serve, I feed, I love. There are doors in my life that have been closed only to surprisingly find other opportunities. One was the validation for Social Services by the Association of Social Workers where I honored Ma'am Soki Rojas for exemplifying resilience despite of personal burdens. She and all our Social Workers respond to the call of service putting others ahead of themselves.
As to clearing my name, I am at peace
that I have done my best to faithfully serve the Lord. The bashing and
negativity will continue, I am not in control of that nor can please everyone.
I open avenues of Gratitude to God most especially for every kind act given
with those who supported me and believed in what we worked for and voted for me
amidst all that was said to destroy me. I thank you all and God bless you all
abundantly.
It will take time and I am uncertain of the future whether my name may be cleared by the public. I put my trust in God alone. I pray we all do trust in God!
“The Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom
the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything and remind you of
all that I told you.” (MBC)
